April 2008

I meant to do my blood test this month but I kept forgetting. I am currently house sitting, where I am writting this. I need to get back to see my GP. I've heard that he's leaving the area, he still has my damn book. I wish I'd known that he was leaving, then I would have started trying to educate a different doctor. I'll have to start from the beginning with someone else. I think that at this point it's quite obvious that I am loosing any motivation that I may have originally had for this whole diet/ pku management thing. I feel so isolated here. I feel I have no support at all. It's so easy just to give up. This all seems like such a difficult thing to do, but I feel that it should be easy, a no brainer. I feel like my life and my health is just something else that I'm failing at. Or maybe it's because I hate myself sometimes? My next appointment at Westmead isn't until the middle of June. I really feel that I need to go out there more than every six months. I never say it though because these appointments are so hard to get that I don't want to take an appointment that could go to someone who hasn't been in for a while (I'm not sure that that sentence makes sense even to me!) I have to somehow get myself back on the wagon, as it were. I'll have another blood test on May 1st, I'll even post it in! I haven't lost any weight, I may even have put some on. My blood glucose level is acceptable, but I'm told that it shouldn't get any higher. The circumference of my ever increasing gut, is enough to suggest that I could be pre-diabetic. So what the hell and I waiting for?